On the Outside

On the outside. That’s how she felt. Disconnected from the world and the people around her. Longing to be herself but always being someone else because the person she was would always just annoy people. Often drinking because when she was drunk, she was free to be the person she really was and people wouldn’t […]

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I Don’t want to go

I don’t want to go   I don’t want to go to concerts I don’t want to fly I don’t want to go black friday shopping Please, don’t make me explain why I don’t want to go out to the club Or even drive a car I don’t want to go on amusement park rides […]

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When did I grow up?

When did I grow up? When did this happen? When did I stop being that smiling little girl? When did pain and hurt invade my veins and turn me into this? This emotional wreck who never seems to do anything right? This girl who strives for perfection but constantly fucks up? I’m 22 but I […]

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Drowning

Drowning   I feel like everyday I’m slipping farther and farther away and no matter how hard I try to stay happy and confident, the water always pulls me back down. I’m drowning, gasping for air but no one can help me. People try to, my fiance, my mom, my grandma, my therapist, my friends, […]

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Roller Coaster

Roller coaster   Like a roller coaster out of control is how she felt The highs were amazing but she knew the lows soon would be dealt When she was up, she swears she can fly But soon she’d crash back down and just start to cry It was a vicious cycle she suffered through […]

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Feeling like you’re in a constant dream

Do you know what it is like to feel like you’re constantly in a dream? To look in a mirror and have no connection with the face looking back at you? Can you imagine the frustration one might feel when nothing around them even feels real? I do. I know the feeling because I suffer […]

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I’m tired

I’m Tired   If you looked at me and asked how I was I’d tell you the truth I’d tell you i’m tired, though it’s no use Because to you tired means sleepy And though that is true My tired has a ton of more meanings too I’m tired of never being good enough no […]

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