Hey everyone. I know it’s been forever since I last posted on here. A lot of personal challenges have come around since this year has begun that has made keeping up with this blog very difficult. The biggest of them being discovering that I actually don’t have Rheumatoid Arthritis, but instead have Lupus. Prior to this diagnosis, my pain had reached very high levels, to the point that even typing became too much for me to do, especially on a daily basis. In addition to the pain, I was having heavy light sensitivity and concentration issues that caused staring at a computer screen to result in very painful headaches. I also began to suffer from brain fog constantly, to the point, I couldn’t really organize my thoughts or what I wanted to say. These new symptoms pushed me to go to a new Rheumatologist and after running blood work, she informed me of this new diagnosis. I have now been on medication for a little over a month and though I have not felt too much relief, I have my good days and my bad days.
When this was all going on, I had very much considered cancelling my blog. I can no longer work and therefore all the financial responsibility must lay on my husbands shoulders. To me, this expense was something that I thought wasn’t necessary. However, my determination and love for blogging caused me to renew. Blogging to me is a safe place and a place where I feel understood, which is very important. I am also in the process of trying to get my Youtube channel created, however, with being sick and in pain a lot, that has shown to be more difficult than I first thought. I do not want to make this long, I just wanted to let you all know where I have been and why I haven’t posted since the beginning of this year before I begin to post again. My hope is now being on treatment, I will be able to get back to some sort of normal and be able to blog even more than I once did. I created this blog and will create my Youtube channel for the same reason. I want this to be something that can hopefully help and inspire others, especially if they are suffering from mental or chronic illnesses that causes them to lose sight of the beauty of life. For months now, I’ve been just existing and it’s time for me to start living again. I may have Lupus and extreme anxiety, but those things do not define who I am. They are only a part of me.
My end goal with this blog is that it becomes a lifestyle blog that will consist of posts that will not only hopefully make living easier for people who have illnesses in their way, but also inspire them to not let their illnesses bring them down and make their life any less beautiful than it should be. I hope to raise awareness on Chronic and mental illnesses, specifically Lupus and Anxiety, as well as take you all on this health journey with me as I learn to cope and manage this new scary disease at only 23 years old. I plan to continue to post poetry about the challenges and other things that go on in my life, and lastly, I hope this blog helps others like me to feel less alone. Living with these illnesses, I often feel very alone because my friends and my family don’t fully understand what I go through. But I’m not alone, and neither are you. I look forward to blogging with you all again very soon!
Until next time my darlings,
Kaylee D. ❤