Why can’t I just be normal, oh why can’t I just be sane
I’m sick of these thoughts, these worries constantly in my brain
All they do is make life harder for everyone, especially myself
And no matter how hard I try, I just can’t seem to get help
The anxiety is so strong it takes over my life
The depression so overwhelming I want to grab a knife
I want to stop the constant pain I feel inside
I want to curl up into a ball and find some place to hide
A place no one will ever find me
A place where I can’t hurt the ones I love you see
Oh why can’t these feelings just disappear
I’m sick of the worrying,the sadness and fear
I just want to be happy, is that so hard to ask
I never imagined being joyful would be such a hard task
For it seems everyday tears fall from my eyes
And on some days, I just want to die
Believing only in death will I finally be free
And that everyone would be much better off without me
I know these thoughts are awful and untrue
But some days the pain is too strong, i’m just too blue
Too blinded by the pain to see the beauty in my life
Too stuck in the darkness to see even a glimmer of light
Oh how I long to be normal, how I long to be free
But deep down I know, a normal life will never be for me
I’ll never be free from the demons within my mind
Even if they leave I know they will return time after time
Because I know in my heart, though it’s heartbreaking to see
Anxiety and Depression will always be a part of me
