I’m crying and falling a part
While you just sit there and stare at me
When did I become the enemy?
When did I become the person you don’t want to see?
What happened to loving me? Protecting me? Saving me?
Am I too broken for your sympathy?
What happened to your empathy?
I thought you were the one sent to me
To rescue me from this tragedy
Instead it seems like you’re the one burying me
Leaving me a victim to the voices in my head
The voices that tell me i’m better off dead
The ones that say everyone would be happier if I was gone
I’m starting to believe their song
For the way you look at me now, it seems they were right all along
So why am I still trying to survive?
Why am I still trying to thrive in a world that wishes me to die?
When I know deep inside, I will never be anything you need
Just another useless mouth to feed
Just another bitch you don’t want to see
Everyday I’m losing more and more of me
More and more of the person I used to be
As the pain takes over and drowns me
And leaves me in a puddle of my own tears, my own blood
Left on the side of the road in a ditch covered in mud
Begging for the sweet escape of death
Giving up on the thought of anyone rescuing me
From the monster that keeps consuming me
From the anger that keeps rising endlessly
Inside of me, causing me to want to hurt anyone I see
Screaming out in agony
At these sudden violent tendencies, stay away from me
I will hurt you, can’t you see, there is no controlling me
Don’t fucking walk away from me
No one can save me from the monster, no matter how hard they may try
No one can save me from this thing that wants me to die
From the being that strangles and tortures me day and night
The anger continues to build up inside
Making it harder and harder to breathe, harder and harder to survive
I don’t want to be alive
As the anger rises it becomes clearer and clearer for me to see
The monster to blame is
Me
