I Don’t want to go

I don’t want to go

 

I don’t want to go to concerts

I don’t want to fly

I don’t want to go black friday shopping

Please, don’t make me explain why

I don’t want to go out to the club

Or even drive a car

I don’t want to go on amusement park rides

Or travel very far

Don’t ask me to go to a broadway show

New york City is a place I just don’t want to go

And though I love movies, I’ll wait so I can watch them at home

For I don’t want to go where movies are first shown

Lately, it seems, i’m afraid of everything

I don’t want to do anything anymore

I wish I could just stay in my house

Just me and the ones I love safe behind a locked door

If someone gets sick or injured, I immediately think they are going to die

I start to panic, get angry, rock back and forth and cry

I don’t like that my mind does this, always thinking of the worst

I just wish I could be normal, not always think of what could go wrong

I’ve lived this way for far too long

I’m sick of living life constantly in fear

I’m sick of the anxiety attacks, i’m sick of the tears

I wish there was a way to finally be free

Be rid of the fear, to be a new me

Because what I am doing is not living no,

It’s just existing in a world, and not knowing where to go