Roller coaster
Like a roller coaster out of control is how she felt
The highs were amazing but she knew the lows soon would be dealt
When she was up, she swears she can fly
But soon she’d crash back down and just start to cry
It was a vicious cycle she suffered through again and again
A cycle she knew would never end
No matter how much she wished the high would stay
She knew the sadness would soon take it all away
At any moment the smile on her face could fade
Leaving her alone, confused, and afraid
No one seemed to understand how her moods could switch so fast
Even she didn’t get why the happiness just couldn’t last
When she was high, she felt the most like herself
But when she was low, she desperately cried out for help
For the lows were the worst and would break her down
Leaving her curled up crying on the ground
Leaving her feeling like her life had no meaning
Leaving her just sitting there screaming
Screaming for the pain to just go away
Begging the voices in her head to stop saying the cruel things they say
The longing to harm, the longing to die
These were the thoughts that made her cry
For she never knew when the high she loved would return
All she knew was how everyone was now concerned
Concerned because the girl they loved wasn’t herself
Confused that she was fine yesterday but now yelling for help
How could someone who had all the energy in the world the day before
Today be this depressed zombie lying on the floor
For you see, when she was high she was the happiest she could be
Loving life and smiling for all to see
Dancing, singing, jumping around
Not a drop of sadness in her could be found
When she was high, she was daring and more confident than ever before
And she was excited for what each new day had in store
Sadly though, she knew this feeling wouldn’t last
She knew this happiness and increased energy would soon be in the past
Soon the highs began to be something she feared as well
For she knew after heaven, she’d be plunged back into hell
She found herself not being able to enjoy the highs like she always had
Because she feared that her life would soon be nothing but bad
A constant torture, a constant battle that never ends
A constant longing to be like her friends
To just be normal and able to live her life
To not have to deal with the constant strife
Oh won’t someone please make this roller coaster stop
And just leave her to be happy left at the top
