I’m tired

I’m Tired

 

If you looked at me and asked how I was

I’d tell you the truth

I’d tell you i’m tired, though it’s no use

Because to you tired means sleepy

And though that is true

My tired has a ton of more meanings too

I’m tired of never being good enough no matter how hard I try

I’m tired of condescending people, secrets and lies

I’m tired of no one taking me seriously

Doctors, teachers and family only going by what they see

But they don’t know how I feel everyday

They don’t see the pain and suffering, though they think they may

I’m tired of my achy body and bones

I’m tired of being so sick and in pain, i’m forced to stay home

And miss out on all the fun and memories I could have made

Because I was too sick to go, or just to afraid

I’m tired of my anxiety always getting in the way

Making it difficult just to survive each and every day

I’m tired of my depression constantly bringing me down

I miss my smile and I hate this frown

I’m tired of my eyes burning from all of these tears

And i’m tired of all my irrational fears

I’m tired of my emotions never staying in my control

I’m tired of feeling broken, I just want to be whole

I’m tired of hurting the people I love again and again

I’m tired of pushing away all of my friends

I’m tired of school, of work, of home

I’m tired of feeling like I have no place to my own

I’m tired of never feeling understood

I’m tired of constantly feeling bad, I just want to feel good

My soul is tired, my body is too

And no amount of sleep can fix this it’s true

I’m tired of being tired all the time

Won’t someone please show me how to climb

Climb this mountain and get to the other side

Where my soul won’t be tired anymore and I can finally feel alive

So yea I’m tired but don’t you see

Tired has so many more meanings to me

5 thoughts on “I’m tired

    1. Thank you so much Katie! It means a lot to me that you took the time to comment! 🙂 Unfortunately, I have felt like that for a very long time but I’m happy to say lately things have been getting much better and though I still have my rough days, I don’t feel like this as much as I used to.

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      1. That’s good that you’re not so bad right now. It’s pretty rough isn’t it … keep on going and keep us posted, you’re with the right people here … we’re all rooting for each other! 😘

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      2. It is definitely rough, many people don’t realize how strong someone with mental illnesses and invisible chronic illnesses has to be just to survive. I definitely will keep you all updated, it means the world to me to know you are all here for me and enjoy what I have to say! 🙂 ❤

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